Blog 1

 My first blog. 

Figured this would be something healthy, for me to express myself in a personal way, yet also with an audience in mind, because God knows, I am so desperately lonely. I feel like I am the only one feeling this way, though every article and movie and word of wisdom keeps on saying otherwise, that everyone else is feeling the same way. I feel as if I am the only one that does not have a job, rely on his parents to keep his family afloat, a wife and two kids, with another one on the way. I can't talk much to anybody except for babies and children, small children, toddlers perhaps. I can't ask them much about what they do, lest they ask me back. But even if they do, I will just say the truth. It does get uncomfortable. 

Anyway, I have been watching a lot of movies lately, and the Office, for the third time probably, up till season 7, always season 7. Steve Carell leaving just takes the fun factor out. I feel like I have a lot of his character in me. Michael Scott I mean. Great for comedy material, not so much in real life. And I am supposed to be writing. I am not even writing a lot of short stories. I have no expectation that I will get published in online journals, and I am not even submitting. It's tough. She said it's for the long haul. She's right. She's always right, as much as I hate to admit it, especially the other things. She's always right. I hate that. 

I watched Y Tu Mama Tambien yesterday. Not gonna comment much about it. Google it and you will know what I mean. I am not gonna say what I felt and what I did. There's Diego Luna; I was surprised to see him there. But it makes sense. It makes sense. Beautiful older woman, two young males. Road trip. Wonderful. 

Today I am watching Notes on a Scandal, Judi Dench and Cate Blanchett. I think that's how they are spelled. I actually found out about these movies when I stumbled upon this article on movies with great narrators. I suppose that makes it like a story. I kinda like this style of writing, confessional type with unreliable narrator, a special one. I guess that's why I like horror and stories that are twisted, in a manner of speaking. 

Watched the movie. Brilliant. Absolutely brilliant. Only got 50 million dollars to a budget of 15, but absolutely brilliant. It's not as popular as Marvel or Titanic or Jurassic Park or all the popular movies because it is not a feel-good movie. But it is quite truthful, uncanny actually in its depiction. I think it's very real, and that...yes, life is stranger than fiction. No wonder the narrating is so good. It's an adaptation of a novel published in 2006, I think, I can't remember. Wikipedia. It is not a movie you would want to watch again. I think. It's not Million Dollar Baby, which I have watched with my students five times? Or less. I have probably watched it 7 times. Maybe 8. Can't remember every line of dialogue yet. 

I would like to talk a bit about the movie, but I will probably do it some other time. Suffice to say, perhaps, that it has shed light on my own inner working, and perhaps of others whom I have come to known. It is very real, and that of which I don't know, I must say it certainly feels very real. Maybe that's why people are scared of watching it. 

That's all for blog 1.