Blog 3

 It has been a long time since I have written on this blog, now feels like a good time.

I am rewatching Dark Water, 2002 Japanese version. I can see the symbols and the foreshadowing more clearly now. Perhaps it will help me in my writing. 

I went drinking by myself just now, discovered a place for craft beer. Drank 4 glasses, I think. Was a bit buzzed but not too bad. It was only in that state of mild intoxication that I could bring myself to do what I fear to do, which I did, and it was kind of nice. Then, the buzz wore off, I drank lots of water and rested, and I drove back to the confinement centre. 

The baby is sleeping and feeding, everyone is sleeping, and then there's me. It is 2024 and I have three kids and am jobless and studying, and writing poetry mostly. For fun. I have plans to write stories, but maybe soon. I have just finished my assignment so I should have some spare time. 

I need to go to Nottingham to double check on my timetable. Being part-time, my semester should begin in April or May I think. Two years, so that makes sense, but I need to check first.

My current plan would be to buy some rack, rearrange stuff in the big storeroom, clean up a little my new study room, since the previous one is now the kids'. Clean up the cot, transfer stuff. Shouldn't  take too long. Read more since I have been procrastinating. Whenever I have something to finish, I can't do other things, even when I am not doing that which I am supposed to be doing.

I fear that people will read this. I won't be writing much here. It is a thing I have to live with the rest of my life. I think about it everyday. I live it everyday. 

Conquer the highway, beneath the yellow sky, that's all I can say.

I guess I shall write more about Dark Water after I have finished rewatching it. It is quite late now though. Reading the Motion anthology I got shortlisted in, but I am taking my time with it. Not reading much nowadays. I should.